The Wanderer

so it's now thursday. hooray for that!

so exicited for this trip that jaime and i may be taking next month! it's going to be awesome!! i really really can't wait. i've never done anything like it and i've always wanted to. river rafting, scenic walks, waterfalls and all that stuff! i just can not wait! going to be planning it more indepth here soon. hopefully this weekend we get plans more set in stone.

so finally signed the tax papers. going to try to send them today. also, going to see Paul with jaime tomorrow. it's going to be alot of fun. i love going to the movies with her :)

st. patties day is here, and i'm working all day :( whatever tho, i'm not even a big drinker. i'm not to concerned about it.

so joe and i are going to go to Kamalot in August in philly. i can't believe that i'm going to be going to a European power band show. but, joe has gone to OAR with me every year since '06. that show will not be the same without him. i'm glad that he continues to go every year. it's the only one i can drag his ass to.

can't wait for OAR to announce the tour date tho! so here's what i'mma go while i wait. list the OAR shows that i've been to, because, why not?

7-29-06 at Merriweather Post, MD
8-17-07 at Merriweather post, MD
7-26-08 at Merriweather post, MD
11-15-08 at Bucknell University, PA
8-7-09 at Merriweather post, MD
8-15-09 at Madison Square Garden, NY
8-18-09 at Festical Pier, PA
10-17-09 at Battleship Amphitheatre, NC
5-15-10 at Preakness, MD
7-24-10 at Festival Pier, PA
8-05-10 at nTelos Pavilion, VA
8-8-10 at Hershey Park, VA
8-12-10 at Merriweather post, MD
11-20-10 at Moravian college, PA
12-18-10 at Strathmore, MD

totals:
15 shows
270 songs heard total
18 songs per show average
58 different songs
55 songs not heard (some are stupid, like songs they've played once.)
5 states

so yea, that's the totals. found a website a few years back. turns out they're playing at Penn state... not gonna be able to go! wait..... hold on... maybe... got to talk to jaime. JAIME! REMIND ME TO TALK TO YOU ABOUT SOMETHING! HINT: OAR RELATED. AND IT INVOLVES THE TRIP THAT WE'RE GOING TO TAKE. WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE OAR DURING OUR VACATION? IF NOT, THAT'S COOL. THE SHOW IS ON 4-29. AT PENN STATE. I THINK IT'S A FREE CONCERT, BUT I'LL LOOK INTO IT
http://www.collegian.psu.edu/archive/2011/03/15/Movin_On_announces_headliners.aspx

so that may be fun to do.

alright. time to clean the room or do something else. ta-ta for now! am i forgetting something... let's see... got the middle, and the beginning... oh yea! how could i forget

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you're my home

so it's wednesday. hooray for that.

it turns out, i suck at keeping secrets... even the ones that i really really want to keep. but o well. it'll still be a good thing to do.

went to the mall yesterday with my lady for lunch, and again after work. picked up an ipod cover. -oh! and got matching keychains :)-

hmm... not much else to really post right now.

so going down to VAbeach for the weekend. next weekend. it's going to be fun. i love going down there. i can't wait to go back to Trashmore with jaime :) and we can feed the ducks :D and see the sunset at the lake :D and do lots of fun things there. but you know what that means... me talking about next weekend means it's time for this blog to reach


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Living in the End

happy monday!

so saw streetlight manifesto last night. pretty good show. got another show poster, gonna frame it up and hang it. got mad at joe before the show, but whatever. i'll go into details later. show was pretty good. they played the 3 songs i love, so that was pretty cool. was in the pit for the first song. got wrecked. it was insane. it was amazing to see over 100 people just fall over in front of me, and trying my hardest not to fall. joe fell, but i was able to keep my feet on the ground. after the first song tho, i went to the bar, because it was just way to much for me. joe came over with me, but went back in the pit for about half the show, so i was kinda by myself for half of it...

so jaime brought up to me about going, or i brought it up to her. which i had asked joe a few weeks back if he minded, and he said no.so i ask him again on friday, and he's like "sure, but in exchange we don't talk to anyone about the show". WTF? we can go, but can't tell anyone? that pissed me off. i understand that jake is still his friend, but i'm still his brother. i hated kelsey, and i made my feelings known about her. HOWEVER, i still invited her to shows, to his party, to group things. i saw how much she meant for him,  but i guess he can't do the same for me? i don't know... that upset me quite a bit.

oh, so at the show, i was texting jaime. and she does the cutest things ever. i'm afraid if i say it here, she may stop, but i don't want her to! so i'll change the subject.

so cj. he got his car stolen and inside his car, was his signed streetlight cd. by Tomas, the singer. so joe and i decide to buy the cd for cj, and try to get it signed. it was his idea, but i got the cd, and was the one kinda saying let's do it... however, i had no idea what that would mean.

so after the show, we wait outside in the freezing cold, for overall maybe an hour and a half outside the tour bus. every 10-15 minutes one of the guys would come out and sign stuff. there were like, ten people waiting. then 6. then 3. then just me and joe. but we got the cd signed by pretty much the full band, only missing one guy. cj's going to love it. here's what we got the guys to sign:
"fuck taco bell" (where his car was stolen, to which the guy who signed it replies, 'i'll sign it, and i'll mean it)
"this one's for America" (cj's saying in COD and halo, 'i'll sign it, but i won't mean it)
"happy birthday cj!"
"sorry about the car homey! here's another. KEEP IT CLOSE!"
so that's done. and going to be honest here...

so i do these things for cj. i do some things for joe, as well. but sometimes, i kinda wish someone would do that for me. like, after the OAR shows, no one offers to stand in the freezing cold for an autograph, or pictures, or anything. no one really seems to want that. but everytime, people are like, "i bet they know you now! blah blah blah" but no one really wants to wait after the show with me... whatever tho. i got my show posters, i got the memories, and i got the recordings. i did get 1 OAR setlist. . .

so i've got work today. also, want to straighten my room up a lil bit. and shower. and pokemon. and just all this other stuff. there is just not enough time in the day! but that's ok, because each day that ends, however sad as that is, all it means is another morning waking up with jaime in my arms. and really, that's what it's about. waking up with someone that i love puts a huge smile on my face, and truely makes the day start off great, even if it is early. but it's totally worth it. i love her :)

well, the day is slipping away, and now i've got some stuff to do... :/ and by stuff, i mean try to do laundry and shower. and not get sucked into playing pokemon, but no promises. oh, and the song the blog's named after, it's called living in

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toy store

so it's friday! hoo-ray! let's see... what's up...

streetlight manifesto show this sunday with joe. gonna be awesome! going to see Red Riding Hood with jaime tonight, which is going to be pretty sha-weet.

i swear i need a calender to keep the concerts that i'm going to in check! i do. i should right it on there
i'll put some here, so i don't forget.

Mogwai is playing 4-19. gonna get tickets to that one

may 6th- bowling for soup / sonar
june 11th- Phish/ Mpp
june 15th- katy perry/ Mpp
with maybe, MAYBE noFx oct. 22nd in VAbeach. not sure yet

so the concerts are going good.  i'm exicited.

and pokemon is going rather well. it's weird not knowing the new one's, but i'm gonna get them all and beat the game before jaime does. so there's that. :)

things are going great with jaime! i really couldn't be happier with how things are turning out. she's really the best thing that's happened for me in a while. it's amazing, it really is. she puts the biggest smile on my face everyday. i'm glad that we're together.

so work let me go home today, mid-shift, to get Phish tickets. kinda bummed that we only got lawn seats, but o well. still got tickets. STILL WAITING ON OAR TOUR DATES!!!!!!

anyways, i hear the pokemon calling. and jaime will get off of work soon. can't wait!

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Destination

what a yucky day. it's raining out. work's probably going to be slow. but whatever. i still get paid the same so suck it servers! haha just kidding. but seriously. i do

so it's almost the weekend. going to see Red Riding Hood with jaime. movie looks pretty cool. color me interested. been rocking to the new pokemon game. it's pretty rad so far. working on getting my 5th badge, but it sucks because i don't know all these new pokemon! i don't have the same 6 ones that i usually have in my team. no alakazam, no blastoise, no moltres, but whatever. i've got a pretty cool team right now, i guess. definitely have a few that are my favorites.

so i got work soon. seems to be like, no tv shows that i've been missing... no new HIMYM, no new modern family. nothin.

OAR is playing as part of the DMB concert thing. may be going. it's in AC, not to far away! oh, and at Warped Tour, there is a few bands i'd like to see this year! Big D and the kids table, relient K, pepper, expendables. perhaps i'll go. thinking i'll do 1 of the Phish shows, not both. but i would like to take jaime to katy perry. so gonna talk to her about doing that.

well, time for the work. and lunch. i havn't eaten much, i keep forgetting! gonna have my wings with ranch and mild sauce. amazing. and no health inspector will be messing with it either! hell yea motha' fucka's.

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must have started a fire, burning for you

so it's tuesday. a day off work! YAY! playing pokemon and sitting on the couch watching wrestling... wow, that sounds like i'm 10 again. waiting for lunch time so i can see jaime again. think i'm going to pull a surprise. going to stop off at panera bread and grab jaime her favorite food, then met her at the mall. and she's totally going to be surprised :D

haha so it turns out i don't know how to use a bandaid. put it on way to tight, and forgot that it was on... for about 2 days. whoops. took it off last night, and my finger was white, and gross looking. but it's all better now.

so things are going really good with jaime so far. and i gotta say, i'm incredibly happy. it's amazing. 6  months ago, hell, maybe even three, i never thought i would be where i am today. and it's funny, because now i can't see my life any other way right now.

alright, laptop's gotta get charged. that means it's now....

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here we are, here i am

so we had such a great time at the show last night! and we got the cd of the show. it was alot of fun. got pics with the band Runner Runner, and jaime thought that peter was cute. so found that out in line to get the cd, which was a long line, and didn't want to leave. thought it would be easy to get a pic with him after we got the cd.

wrong.

so we ask the drummer who is still out if peter was around because jaime "fancied him". he texted peter for us. made awkward conversation with him while we waited. after a few minutes he said that peter may just be outside. so we go outside, and no peter. but i see some other band members. i ask them if they know where peter is because jaime fancied him. so one guy goes to the right, and the other guy goes inside looking for peter. after about 5 minutes, the guy comes out. alone. no peter...

he goes looking inside again for peter. then after a few minutes, he comes back out. again. alone... he say's he's going to check the bus. oh, and before he went inside, he tried calling peter for us. so peter was in the bus! he comes out and gets his picture taken with jaime.  totally made her night, i think.

no luck on getting a setlist, but o well. i got a live cd. and an autographed runner runner cd. totally had alot of fun last night. pics up on facebook... maybe soon? maybe not.

so the title to this one is something odd. it's a freestyle from the OAR song untitled, about a break-up. and how after you end a relationship, you're not titled (boyfriend, friend, girlfriend, fiancée, husband, wife, etc), but you're also not a stranger. you're just ... untitled. so the line goes, "so here we are, here i am. untitled, once again"...

but not anymore. i've got a title now. and i couldn't be happier.

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Hold On True

so totally forgot about today being my 8-3:59 shift, and the show tonight. told ryan i'd do hoods, which puts me at work untill 3(roughly) on thursday night. woke up around 6:30. i'm running on about 3 hours sleep, and pumped about this show. i can't wait! just really really tired.

so at work, i showed how tired i was. hurt my finger pretty bad moving kegs around. not the worst injury ever, but man oh man does it hurt a wee little bit. totally just was a "floater" today. i didn't do a damn thing of my own, just helped out, mainly carryout. i just walked around a bit. my grandmother stopped by Adam's for lunch, so i sat with her for a few minutes. then they made me do stuff...

so, totally forgot... and didn't think things through. i was trying to see CKY, but i think we're going to be in VAbeach the night of the show! no biggie, i just wanted to see another show. Rog said he's going to a show in April sometime, and i've been invited.

i'm excited about this surprise i got in store for jaime. it's pretty sweet. and i think she'll like it. :)

alright. nap time.

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2011

so far, here's what i've done/ got going on:

pietasters, Less than jake (twice), VACO - all seen so far

good Charlotte, streetlight, bowling for soup - tickets bought

Phish (2 night @ merriweather post!!), CKY, OAR (at least 8 times), katy perry (if we go to phish), plus lot's of new CD's. (OAR, matt nathanson, blink 182, etc).

what a good year so far with lot's more to come!

waiting on a new destination

so it's thursday, and just like last week, going to have lunch with jaime. watching blues brothers 2000 while i wait for the time to pass. not sure what i got myself into with doing hoods tonight though. i mean, getting off around 3(?), then work at 8, then concert? what kind of craziness did i get into? totally worth it though.

still waiting on the OAR summer tour, and i can't wait for the summer. if it's half as good as this year has been, i'll be happy with it. just have to wait, i suppose.

so went to applebee's last night with jaime to see some friends play. turns out it wasn't what i thought, but i saw alot of old friends i havn't seen for a while, which was nice.

i'm crazy about jaime, i really am. i mean, heck, i took her down to VAbeach to meet my mom... that never happens. blues brothers 2000 is awesome. so going to see Good Charlotte this week with jaime. i'm looking forward to the show. it's going to be show 5 of the year so far. then streetlight with joe on the 13th. a quarter of the way to 24! i may do it :D

there's a few movies i want to watch in the next week or so. and i'm finally going to see Beastly! i have been waiting and waiting and waiting. i aslo get to meet jaime's friend missy and her bf. so that'll be good. i'm looking forward to it.

i was talking to juggarnaut, and i told  him that i haven't been this happy for the past 5 years. (side note, blues brothers in general has the best car crashes, ever. fact. it's a shame jaime doesn't like musicals, or i'd totally make her watch it. i've already made her watch like, 3)

so i'm in bed with my kitty cat. i love my big orange. he's my buddy. well, got to go!
(oh, the titles may or may not be OAR songs/lyrics for the most part IE Here's to you, waiting on a new destination)
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having a great time

so i made this blog today so that i can read what my pretty lady has been blogging about. figure i might as well give her something to read as well, it's only fair. been having a great 2011 so far. this has been the best year ever for me. i don't seem to have a lot of good luck, but maybe it was just storing up for this year. at least that's what i want to think.

so we got back from VAbeach this past weekend. only stayed for a day, but it truly was one of the best times I've been down there. we made a fort, which was awesome. i always sleep under the kitchen table at my mom's house, and when i asked jaime where she wanted to sleep, like on the couch, on the floor, maybe steal dan's bed, she told me she wanted to sleep under the table. see, that right there just made me smile. it was just a little thing that i mentioned to her in passing, and she listened. so we made a fort over the kitchen table. best fort ever.

we had lunch with her sister and her family at pungo's pizza and ice cream. pizza was good. i'm pretty sure that the waitress messed up our order, but it seemed to work out in the end. chicken ranch pizza was amazing. her sister has two little babies, and they were really cute.

then went over to Mt trashmore. now, mt. trashmore is a place that i like to go everytime i'm down south if i can. it's just an amazing place. i don't really go with other people. it's like my thinking spot when i'm down there. i can just escape from everything. the first time i went there, i was gone for hours, and no one knew where i was. it's just a peaceful place, the view is amazing, there's alot of kites flying during the summer, and the sounds of kids screaming and playing at the park fill the air, but aren't overwhelming. the water there is amazing. there are alot of bird like creatures there. i call the white one sea-pigeons. the other ones ducks. there are some geese there as well. they are just plain ol' mean tho.

so anyways, so i took jaime to my thinking spot. and she seemed to enjoy it. we had fun messing with the flying sea creatures. played on the playground for the first time in years. i love being with her for this reason. i can be myself around her. i can act like a big kid running around the playground, and she'd be right behind me.

but anyways, not going to go into the play by play of the trip. not enough time before work. so here's the goals for the year. 24 shows. yes. 24 concerts. not local bands, but semi-big bands. at venues. this goal is something that i know i can reach. and this goal, i feel, in a large part is the reason i have jaime to call mine. she went to the Pietasters show with me. so even if i don't reach my goal, i still would consider it a win for me.

so got the house back. sitting in the couch with the new coffee table. this room seems to be coming together. it's amazing on how every time i walk in the house, it's different. i can tell you this, this is not the same house as it was before. it never will be. but i'm ok with that. my room is pretty much done now. i have to take out a few boxes that i have stacked up, but that's about it. oh, and i need to get my dad's stuff out of my closet. then it'd be done. it's so nice in my room now. i love it. it may not be the same old house that it was before, but i still feel like i'm home. i mean, this is where i grew up. it may have different stuff inside, but to me, it's still home. the walls are different, the layout downstairs is different. the light switches are different, the lights and fans are different, the beds are different. but i still feel home. i still love this house and everything.

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things i have written

Kissing your wife and child good night

Reminding each one to rest and sleep tight

The day is over so get ready for bed

Closing your eyes and resting your head

Sleep is what the body needs and craves

When lacked, the day goes by in a haze

Sleep long and feel rested, the last you receive

I'll be my actions you misconceive

Dreaming of things I would do to your soul

You'd break and bend when I'm in control

Opening the window to carry you out

I pity you, as "STOP!" no one shouts

Away we go to my pleasurable place

My haven, your hell, my saving grace

Pictures that tell your life are up on my walls

You are plastered over my unforgiving halls

I know what you did and know who you are

The bruises caused, lives you have scarred

Tying your body to my torture device

I hope you are dreaming of something nice

Your arms lay shackled at your lifeless side

Only to my will shall they abide

You start to move, some motion, to stir

Vision is blackened, becoming a blur

Questioning the how, the why and where

A feeling sets in, a feeling of despair

Attacking with silence, instead of my rage

Playing my role, not myself on stage

Listening to you beg and plead for your life

Looking into the sharp blade of my knife

Pleading for life, for death, for love, for hate

Not for torture, rudely interrupting fate

Sweat and tears start to form on your face

The face I hate, of disgust and disgrace

My plan soon starts and your goes sour

I can't believe the amount of adrenaline and power

Of all the things that I could do to make you die

Hurt you so bad I won't have a reason as to why

I could rip your legs from beneath your body

Nail them to the malls, it'd be my new hobby

Gauging your eyes could fill me with joy

Turning insides out on my new toy

I could maim and murder your entire family

O what the pleasure would fill me with glee

The blade on my knife is aching to slice

Your sin is worse then denying Him thrice

Screams would fill my ears and echo forever

Each one of my tactics so wise and clever

Not touching a single hair on your head

My reasons and expiation still not said

Only with my cold, empty eyes I attack

My actions predatory and yours ignored

Wondering what I am doing this for

Silent rage has taken you over for now

Your acceptance of death but not of how

Putting you in your own little hell

Your latest chapter no way I'll tell

Praying to a higher power, God of your belief

Waiting for Death to give you some relief

He'll never come leaving my to explain why

No matter how much you plead and cry

Death, the man most commonly feared

Is now someone you should hold close and dear

You've been avoiding him for years and for ages

Writing a book of life full of pages and pages

He's letting you live so he could proudly boast

That he, the most feared, is need the most

The roles are reversed and he's avoiding your time

Now it's my role to do justice for your crime

You'll beg and plead but I'll never share why

I'll bloody and beat you, and never let you die

The Sun and the Moon

The sun and the moon are the perfect pair.

The moon gets the night, the sun gets the day.

Never talk, no converse, but each is fair.

They both get their feelings in with no say.

Rising at the sunset, leaving at dawn.

The moon is high, soars beyond shady skies.

It's almost not seen between morning yawns,

But the bond that they share can never die.

The moon gets some peace and it gets some crime.

The sun gets the day, celebration hour.

The moon gets the night, shadows, coldest time,

They are respectful, but often prove sour.

The couple never sleeps, always awake.

The ideal duo is show, when a fake.